A NOTE ABOUT EVER LOVED
In the Ever Fallen acknowledgements, I made a promise. I said the following book wouldn’t take two years to be released. It has, at the time of writing this, been almost five years. An apology, of course, is needed—I’m sorry, dear reader. At the same time, I truly needed that break.
A lot has happened in those five years. Most significantly, I got divorced. With the loss of that relationship, I also lost all motivation and ability to daydream. Writing was the last thing on my mind.
For three years, my writing was left in a laptop folder, barely opened, as I tried to reconnect with myself and my dreams.
During that time, I found real joy and embraced my true, full self. I met my equal and fell in love. Together, we said goodbye to our previous homes and found a place and property to live—a place which inspires me daily.
Still, I didn’t open that folder on my laptop, even with my love beginning the process of selflessly building me a writing studio. My spare time was used up by following another dream I had in my mind, a goal I thought I needed to achieve, and writing felt too much of a luxury I had no time for.
Then, my dear mum passed away, and I entered a month-long existential crisis.
As I emerged from my grief and the questioning of every aspect of what I wanted my future to look like, I began by returning to this manuscript. I was instantly reminded of my love for writing.
What is a dream and goal, if it’s not able to be enjoyed? I’ve tangibly realised that a dream isn’t a destination or a finish line… it’s an experience… it’s a way of life.
And so, in this book titled Ever Loved, I want to share how it was love that brought me back to my purpose:
The love of my mother, now deeply missed from my life.
The love of my partner, Dan, who brings so much joy into my days.
The love of my kindred spirit, Liss, where an endless stream of support, encouragement, and inspiration abounds.
The love I have for myself, for my passions, and dreams. Not just the good parts of me, but also the shadow parts. Enough love to embrace myself in my fullness.
The promise I now make is not to you, it’s to myself. I promise to live in my truth. No more self-betrayal. Which leads me to the title of book 4…
Ever True.
